| (no subject) |
[Nov. 15th, 2005|09:43 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  happy | ] |
geeze, i just keep going around and around. i think its just one of those days. i feel very sceptical. very thankful and full of thoughts today. i am typing this book of directories and its pretty awesome. i mean when i first started it, it was hell. but ive learned to get past that. i think i just have to have will power to say im going to stick it thru.
this weekend rocked. i went on the amtrak for the very first time and went to see my sister at stanford. it was the best time i've ever had with her. we both got really shitfaced. fun hu! lol, well i'd never seen her drunk and she was hella funny. we were dancing and having a ball. then we took off and went to this other party. and i was in the best mood ever. running around like a mad women. then she started to puke. so i held her hair and we went back to her dorms and passed out. the rest of the weekend we ate and she took me on some historic walk that i almost died on. it was all well worth it.
this weekend made me think a lot. i look up to my sister. but shes everything my parents want. and she made me realize that. and thats why they pay for her college because she has achievable goals. and it made me smile knowing i am my own person. aside from the rest of my family. i can handle two jobs, partying on the weekends and still have time for myself, my friends and family. i like to drink to have a good time and i like to do whatever the fuck i want. i dont know what i want to become, but thats ok. i mean i have my whole life. and im just taking it one step at a time.
what irritated me was when i told me sister i wanted to take french. and she was like thats not gonna help you get a career, its just going to go on your entertainment list. i was like what the fuck. you can take german and its ok, but i cant take french. i dont know, but i was mature about it and just let it go. i dont take things to heart anymore.
ahh! i can feel myself changing, and part of me wants to hold back, but another part of me is like this is just life. its scary and i feel like this raging person inside. but it will pass...hopefully. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jul. 4th, 2005|11:38 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | AC | ] |
oh what an update. life is good. crazy shit has been happening lately. but it keeps life interesting. i need to not jump to conclusions. i think my life is over, when im stressing over a measly little thing. i cant go back and change what happened. i just have to make a better choice next time.
people are going to be assholes. and i just have to say to myself i dont need them. they fuck me over time and time again. im too nice god damnit. im just going to be a bitch all the time. but thats not me. maybe it is. deep down. people piss me off after i give u gas money. fuck u. fuck u. ahhh. im not gonna let u take avantage of me anymore. fuck u. i want people to hang out with. who are nice and are cool and not concieded. because hello. god damn it.
well im off to the train station. going far away from here |
|
|
| mmm, carmal apple pops! |
[Jun. 6th, 2005|11:01 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | me singing the lolly pop song, yay! | ] |
im sitting in mrs goss' class room and my stomach is growling. im hungry. word lol, but im eating a lolly pop. reminds me of that song, i'll take u to the candy shop, i'll let u lick the lolly pop, ooooh! hahaha, i love it. i love it!
mmm, though i had a mocha coffee this morning. i made it and it was hecka bomb. i got online this morning and my mom was yelling and screaming and banging up the stairs because she was pissed. i was like omg! mom, whats wrong. and she just cussed at me and left. i was like whoa.
my grandma is coming here from portland today. im excited. graduation is in 4 days. i have to work on a dance because im gonna dance across stage. haha, cuz im a nerd like that.
i finished my proficiency almost. all i have to do is put new pictures on it. but my digital camera has no batteries. damn it. i uploaded and made new folders of all my pics on my digital camera this morning. i got up at like 3:30. i was hecka hungry. i think im either growing or am going to begin pms because i dont usually get this hungry.
this week is finals. i finished early so im updating. im not too worried about them. i have all A's and B's, except for english. i have no clue what i have in english. i think either a b- or c.
this is basically the only site i can get on at school. no more myspace, damn it. and no more yahoo. shit. lol, im expecting two very important emails.
this weekend was the fo-shizzle. friday was eventful and so was saturday and sunday. lol.
and a grand day it is today. im kinda cold. i look good today. i decided to wear skirt. a little tight, but ahh well. ha! pink is seriously my new favorite color. and hella people r like u look soo good in pink. im like thaaaaank u. thaaaaank u. lol but then i went into the office to get a stapler and the vice prinsiple was like ur skirt is a little short. and ya it is, but its cute. lol. and i have a 100 dollars check coming for my proficency for nationals.
yahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! |
|
|
| PROM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[May. 19th, 2005|10:29 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Metalica- my friend of misery | ] |
so i never updated about prom!
lets just say it was off the hook. i took my hair out on monday and i had 30 rubberbands and 13 bobby pins. wow!
watch out. i had so much fun. me and alicia were the hottest people their. we went to dinner and took pictures and danced hella much. during dinner Rauul called me and was like their breath alizing. i was like dude! im not stupid. they breath alized me at the last dance. but he didnt even come...because he had been drinking...lol...:(
but i had so much fun anyways. and i was so glad i went with alicia. she never went and now she has. now i have too. woot.
im at school now. i went driving yesterday. im going to get my liscence soon, hopefully. i was talking to the guy taking me driving and he really likes me. and im like umm, no. and i told him that. and we were driving and i got hella tired so he drove. and hes like u wanna go home or keep driving. its like im not going to freakin make out which u. lol. of course i wanted to go home. it was like 1:30 in the morning. so he gets to my driveway and turns off his lights. i grab my purse and am like bye. lol. it was great.
and my legs hella hurt today. i dont know why. im sending out announcements today and looking for a job. my friend pamela called me yesterday. i havent seen her since elementary school. she goes to rio linda. shes like u wanna go dancing friday. im like hey how are u doing? sure. lol, so were going dancing. lol!
i feel really out of shape. maybe because i have been eating like crap and not walking or doing weights everyday. we have no healthy food at my house. we only have food that is processed or cheese. i dont eat cheese. lol, we dont even have god damn milk. ahh! i brought running clothes today because i dont have photography, but my legs hella hurt.
i have to type an autism essay before people come in next period. u know what i cant stand is when fucking people stare at me. my brother does that. my driving instructor just stared at me for hella long last night. ahh! i just want to smack them. its not me being paranoid, its just annoying as fuck. it used to happen at the store i worked at. people would just stare at me. and it bugged the crap out of me. so i put up a little caution sign so people didnt come behind the counter
thats all. jen comes home today or maybe shes already in town.
the end |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[May. 18th, 2005|11:59 am] |
 i love this sign. i found it on one of my friends user page. broccolli! yum~ |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[May. 12th, 2005|11:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | nothing. its really quite. and thats nice | ] |
so im working on my senior questionaire and i came on here for something, but im figuring out how to upload pictures. its really cool i have a digital camera and its like hello! put the pictures online. lol. i forgot how to do this, but i kind of remember now. its coming back lol.
this pic is of me, way last summer ago. ha! under a peach tree. yum! it portland oregon.
i uploaded a pic, but i need more practce, cuz i dont think its clear enough or big enough. lol, well im off to sleep.
goodnight everyone |
|
|
| jewwwwel |
[May. 10th, 2005|06:00 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Jewel, who will save your soul | ] |
im sitting here listening to jewel and i havent listened to this cd in hecka days. i came online to research autism and then i have to go write a paper and work on scholarships. heck yes. woot*
im eating gushers and they are like really really hard. lol. haha. |
|
|
| mmmwwahhahahahahaha! |
[May. 8th, 2005|01:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal. |
|
|
| quotes people! |
[May. 3rd, 2005|03:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  restless | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | should be all night long-ACDC! | ] |
i love quotes. they are my escape. i just read them and write them down and they insprire me. right now, i dont know what im going to do. but i have these quotes to fall back on. i have to strive to graduate and thats about it right now
today, my quote is
"They who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who only dream by night."
Edgar Allen Poe |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[May. 2nd, 2005|11:48 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
man. i go to sleep at 10. and wake up at 11. its nice, but im still tired.i have to go to school at like 12:30 today. and its 11:45, so i better get ready. ha. im really worried right now. i feel so behind in everything, that i dont know if i will get it all done. i feel as if im growing closer away from my friends because im putting other things first. which i cant help because i have a life.
but i do think im loosing a friend. it sure as hell feels like it. because of my actions, because of hers. and at first i was really being emo about it. and i still am. we have been through so much shit. and im really sad about it. but u know what. this is life. people come and go, things come and go. if their your friends they'll stick by you no matter what your troubles are. not just cut off all conversations with u. thats what pisses me off the most. ahh! i want to scream! and when she fucking wants to call me and talk, im suppose to pick up. im suppose to call her back when i miss her call. yet she doesnt pick up her phone when i call. she doesnt call me fucking back. she gets mad because i dont call her back. ahh! it annoys me and even brings tears to my eyes because were not friends anymore.
but u know what. this is life. this is learning and making mistakes and moving on. |
|
|
| today is a bbbbbeautiful day |
[Apr. 29th, 2005|09:07 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | greenday, | ] |
happy today everyone. its a beautiful day. this morning i kept my door close and put stuff in front of it so no one could wake me up. and no one even bothered. i woke up at 7:00 and then at 7:30 and decided, ya. i should get up.
i told my mom my arrangements for prom. and shes like well whos alicia. im like mom. if u met alicia, you would would prolly shit your pants because shes the most awesome person EVER!!! well i didnt say that, but i was thinking it. and she is just like ok. so this weekend were getting my dress. im hecka excited.
my glamour shot pictures came in. that means i have to start writing out my announcements. i always forget that word. ha! but my pictures turned out good. haha, i thought i looked crappy at first, but they cleaned them up and they look good. i graduate in 31 days not counting half days (monday through friday) and 43 days total counting weekends.
im hella excited. oh heck yes. and today is a good day. i found a ladybug. well actually i named him mr. ladybug because he was cute. and ladybugs are lucky. im not high on any substance. just the sunshine and my own natural high.
hahah. i crack myself up. now...im off to photography! |
|
|
| sickness. go away! |
[Apr. 25th, 2005|09:06 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | people talking | ] |
im sick. blah! im sitting here writing 4-H end of the year reports. my phone is temporarily shut off, but hopefully it will be on tomorrow. ok, i KNOW it will be on tomorrow
this weekend was good. friday i had a cooking meeting. we made hella good sourcream coffee cake. oh heck yes. then i went home and i cleaned and went to sleep for about 5 hours. because i didnt sleep at all thursday and i thought heck. i need some sleep. woops. ha!
worked only on saturday. i worked the register. interesting stuff happens at the register. well...thats when u talk to people...and i love talking to people. :) a guy gave me free rivercats tickets. but i had no one to go with so i just gave them away to another person. a man bought me an icecream sandwhich and one man offered to get me a fake id. well i kinda...ha alicias...have one...but i was like hey. haha. then i went to my friend rebbecca's and we went to bel air and got ice cream and gummy worms. then we had mad dog 20/20 and i passed out.
sunday i got up and eww, i felt sick. katelyn, rebbeccas little daughter, was up and coughing all night and now i can barely talk.
yesterday i went to work and got my check. they only took out 3 dollars so i was happpy.:) we picked up this guy nuno who i used to work with and we all went to denio's farmers auction. and i got hecka fruit. yay for fruit. and then we wnet to taco bell. ahh the chicken quesadilla's (ha) and then we went back to rebbeccas and i was tired so i went to sleep. got up and ate chicken and beer. yummy! then went to walmart and then home and i cleaned my room basically the whole nite.
i had a good weekend...except that im sick. :( |
|
|
| this song that samantha sang |
[Apr. 22nd, 2005|02:51 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Oasis | ] |
im in ag. they called me out. i had to finish my thank you letter. well i just put it in the envelope. mrs. goss liked my thank you letter. she was like that was a really good letter.
i was like thank u thank u
everyone is talking about prom. i hella want to go. but i dont want to go without a date. i dont know. i asked this guy daniel. but he was like i dancing and i have no money. and im like damn. lol. i really want to go. u only go once to your senior prom. and i want mine to be special. i'll go some how
so i have a cooking meeting tonite. fun. i have to go home and type up a 4-H planning schudule to turn in. oh boy, watch out. i dont know what im going to make, but i will figure out something.
me and bumpy went to jamba juice yesterday and i paid with my visa card. its the second time i paid with it. its cool. haha. im a nerd i know
and now i have to walk my ass back to english. im broke. and i need to put money on phone because it only has like 50 minutes left.
and im sitting here listening to these girls next to me about how fat they are, and their both like fucking hot. lol, and ya. i mean i can say that. lol
and then...katie ran to uhh...english...the class im uhh...passing...:) |
|
|
| eww |
[Apr. 21st, 2005|09:12 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  excited | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | why dont u wobble wobble, oh shake it shake it | ] |
ha, oh what a beautiful day. i stayed home again today. not by someone leaving me, but because i have orientation today. im excitied.
im working on a scholarship and cleaning my room. im going to go develop pictures today at walgreens.
i am going to go jump in the shower because i smell really bad. i took a shower yesterday, but still yuck. |
|
|
| oh man. happy happy day |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|09:38 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | people talking. me looking at my horoscope | ] |
i am walking one fine line. crap crap shit. seriously.
right now i just feel all jittery. and all i had this morning was coffee, orange juice, and cream of wheat. i mean i have had only 4 hours of sleep, but who can complain. my house is such a mess. i just want to clean it up. but i have to go to school. im going to graduate. i dont know why im thinking of cleaning at a time like this. ahh!
happy 4-20 everyone. im sooo happy. i hope you are too:)
so i was gone yesterday from school, and im going to be gone today. and im going to be gone tomorrow. and mr. roberts isnt going to count my suspensions. man oh man, i feel this crazy rush as in im behind and i have the oppurtunity to catch up. i dont know...i need to read my horoscope today. ha!
so this is what i need to do:
-Write Scholarship Essays
-Complete Actual Scholarships Applications
-Type 4-H Secrataries Notes and 4-H planner Summary
-Look up a recipie for my cooking meeting this Friday
-Call 4-H Members for our cooking meeting on Friday.
-Find out my Schedule for work because i dont even know when im going to work again.
-Quit the job i have now and schedule an interview for the other job i have lined up
-Write thank you notes off the wall
-Go pick up my pictures from glamour shots
-Do my graduation Announcements
-Call people to Sell Guinea pigs
-Do my homework and all Missing assignments as well as Extra Credit
-Clean my room, do dishes, dust
-Get my Liscence |
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
| |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
caligrrlnotes's journal
awake
content
blank