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(no subject) [Nov. 15th, 2005|09:43 am]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]

geeze, i just keep going around and around. i think its just one of those days. i feel very sceptical. very thankful and full of thoughts today. i am typing this book of directories and its pretty awesome. i mean when i first started it, it was hell. but ive learned to get past that. i think i just have to have will power to say im going to stick it thru.

this weekend rocked. i went on the amtrak for the very first time and went to see my sister at stanford. it was the best time i've ever had with her. we both got really shitfaced. fun hu! lol, well i'd never seen her drunk and she was hella funny. we were dancing and having a ball. then we took off and went to this other party. and i was in the best mood ever. running around like a mad women. then she started to puke. so i held her hair and we went back to her dorms and passed out. the rest of the weekend we ate and she took me on some historic walk that i almost died on. it was all well worth it.

this weekend made me think a lot. i look up to my sister. but shes everything my parents want. and she made me realize that. and thats why they pay for her college because she has achievable goals. and it made me smile knowing i am my own person. aside from the rest of my family. i can handle two jobs, partying on the weekends and still have time for myself, my friends and family. i like to drink to have a good time and i like to do whatever the fuck i want. i dont know what i want to become, but thats ok. i mean i have my whole life. and im just taking it one step at a time.

what irritated me was when i told me sister i wanted to take french. and she was like thats not gonna help you get a career, its just going to go on your entertainment list. i was like what the fuck. you can take german and its ok, but i cant take french. i dont know, but i was mature about it and just let it go. i dont take things to heart anymore.

ahh! i can feel myself changing, and part of me wants to hold back, but another part of me is like this is just life. its scary and i feel like this raging person inside. but it will pass...hopefully.
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(no subject) [Jul. 4th, 2005|11:38 am]
[Current Mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[Current Music |AC]

oh what an update. life is good. crazy shit has been happening lately. but it keeps life interesting. i need to not jump to conclusions. i think my life is over, when im stressing over a measly little thing. i cant go back and change what happened. i just have to make a better choice next time.

people are going to be assholes. and i just have to say to myself i dont need them. they fuck me over time and time again. im too nice god damnit. im just going to be a bitch all the time. but thats not me. maybe it is. deep down. people piss me off after i give u gas money. fuck u. fuck u. ahhh. im not gonna let u take avantage of me anymore. fuck u. i want people to hang out with. who are nice and are cool and not concieded. because hello. god damn it.

well im off to the train station. going far away from here
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mmm, carmal apple pops! [Jun. 6th, 2005|11:01 am]
[Current Mood |happyhappy]
[Current Music |me singing the lolly pop song, yay!]

im sitting in mrs goss' class room and my stomach is growling. im hungry. word lol, but im eating a lolly pop. reminds me of that song, i'll take u to the candy shop, i'll let u lick the lolly pop, ooooh! hahaha, i love it. i love it!
  mmm, though i had a mocha coffee this morning. i made it and it was hecka bomb. i got online this morning and my mom was yelling and screaming and banging up the stairs because she was pissed. i was like omg! mom, whats wrong. and she just cussed at me and left. i was like whoa.
  my grandma is coming here from portland today. im excited. graduation is in 4 days. i have to work on a dance because im gonna dance across stage. haha, cuz im a nerd like that.
 i finished my proficiency almost. all i have to do is put new pictures on it. but my digital camera has no batteries. damn it. i uploaded and made new folders of all my pics on my digital camera this morning. i got up at like 3:30. i was hecka hungry. i think im either growing or am going to begin pms because i dont usually get this hungry.
     this week is finals. i finished early so im updating. im not too worried about them. i have all A's and B's, except for english. i have no clue what i have in english. i think either a b- or c. 
this is basically the only site i can get on at school. no more myspace, damn it. and no more yahoo. shit. lol, im expecting two very important emails.
 this weekend was the fo-shizzle. friday was eventful and so was saturday and sunday. lol.
and a grand day it is today. im kinda cold. i look good today. i decided to wear skirt. a little tight, but ahh well. ha! pink is seriously my new favorite color. and hella people r like u look soo good in pink. im like thaaaaank u. thaaaaank u. lol but then i went into the office to get a stapler and the vice prinsiple was like ur skirt is a little short. and ya it is, but its cute. lol. and i have a 100 dollars check coming for my proficency for nationals.


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PROM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [May. 19th, 2005|10:29 am]
[Current Mood |anxiousanxious]
[Current Music |Metalica- my friend of misery]

so i never updated about prom! lets just say it was off the hook. i took my hair out on monday and i had 30 rubberbands and 13 bobby pins. wow! watch out. i had so much fun. me and alicia were the hottest people their. we went to dinner and took pictures and danced hella much. during dinner Rauul called me and was like their breath alizing. i was like dude! im not stupid. they breath alized me at the last dance. but he didnt even come...because he had been drinking...lol...:( but i had so much fun anyways. and i was so glad i went with alicia. she never went and now she has. now i have too. woot. im at school now. i went driving yesterday. im going to get my liscence soon, hopefully. i was talking to the guy taking me driving and he really likes me. and im like umm, no. and i told him that. and we were driving and i got hella tired so he drove. and hes like u wanna go home or keep driving. its like im not going to freakin make out which u. lol. of course i wanted to go home. it was like 1:30 in the morning. so he gets to my driveway and turns off his lights. i grab my purse and am like bye. lol. it was great. and my legs hella hurt today. i dont know why. im sending out announcements today and looking for a job. my friend pamela called me yesterday. i havent seen her since elementary school. she goes to rio linda. shes like u wanna go dancing friday. im like hey how are u doing? sure. lol, so were going dancing. lol! i feel really out of shape. maybe because i have been eating like crap and not walking or doing weights everyday. we have no healthy food at my house. we only have food that is processed or cheese. i dont eat cheese. lol, we dont even have god damn milk. ahh! i brought running clothes today because i dont have photography, but my legs hella hurt. i have to type an autism essay before people come in next period. u know what i cant stand is when fucking people stare at me. my brother does that. my driving instructor just stared at me for hella long last night. ahh! i just want to smack them. its not me being paranoid, its just annoying as fuck. it used to happen at the store i worked at. people would just stare at me. and it bugged the crap out of me. so i put up a little caution sign so people didnt come behind the counter thats all. jen comes home today or maybe shes already in town. the end
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(no subject) [May. 18th, 2005|11:59 am]
 i love this sign. i found it on one of my friends user page. broccolli! yum~
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(no subject) [May. 17th, 2005|07:20 pm]
[Current Mood |awakeawake]
[Current Music |AC/DC]

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(no subject) [May. 13th, 2005|08:30 pm]
[Current Mood |contentcontent]
[Current Music |AC/DC Baby]

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(no subject) [May. 12th, 2005|11:43 pm]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]
[Current Music |nothing. its really quite. and thats nice]

so im working on my senior questionaire and i came on here for something, but im figuring out how to upload pictures. its really cool i have a digital camera and its like hello! put the pictures online. lol. i forgot how to do this, but i kind of remember now. its coming back lol.

this pic is of me, way last summer ago. ha! under a peach tree. yum! it portland oregon.

i uploaded a pic, but i need more practce, cuz i dont think its clear enough or big enough. lol, well im off to sleep.

goodnight everyone
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(no subject) [May. 12th, 2005|11:36 pm]

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jewwwwel [May. 10th, 2005|06:00 pm]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |Jewel, who will save your soul]

im sitting here listening to jewel and i havent listened to this cd in hecka days. i came online to research autism and then i have to go write a paper and work on scholarships. heck yes. woot*

im eating gushers and they are like really really hard. lol. haha.
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